I'm going to be switching names shortly. I know, I can't hold still but oh well. I just don't like this name; it doesn't mean much to me anymore like it used to.

When I get around to changing I'll be posting it to my friends only. If you want to be added back to my friends list, please post here now.

I made a post a while back about a book of essays written about furries, by furries. You can see it here:

http://community.livejournal.com/openpaws/451764.html

Due to my massive inexperience with publishing, personal issues, and other things that have continuously gotten in the way, I'm going to have to drop the project.

Well sort of. I'd rather hand the project over to someone else if they're interested. Please message me or reply here if you're interested.

I'm changing my fursona. Again. Today I'm a serval/satyr hybrid. Drew a picture, too lazy to upload.

Tomorrow I'll probably be a asio;ghsehgiojoiofef/stop sign hybrid.


Furry Essay Book Update

At the moment things aren't looking too good. I'm not getting much feed back, what I have gotten has thrown some huge blocks in my way(not anybody's fault or anything, just the difficulties of publishing) and I have a limited group of reviewers, a good amount having not responded back to me yet.

If I don't get enough responses by the end of the month I'm going to shut it down and offer the idea up to whoever else might want to take over.

Two big things for Christmas.

1. Holy bitch I got a fucking ipod! I was going to get myself something off brand and cheap one of these days, but I hadn't gotten around to it. My sister, brother, mother, and father all chipped in to get it for me since I was the only one of the three kids to not have one yet. *rapes it* I named ti Cheshire, 'cause it sounded good. And it now houses 162 show tunes/dance songs/Cher and Julie greatness.

2. Um, this one's weird and I'm not sure how to feel about it. My sister's boyfriend got me a second hard drive for my computer. Don't get me wrong; 250 gigs of space to shove all my shit in and speed up my original hard drive is a great thing! But seriously, did I deserve? That thing couldn't have been cheap. And he just recently got me a video card to. I am happy with them, it just seems a bit overboard.

And Christmas isn't over yet. As per tradition we have Christmas at my grandparent's, Christmas at my Mom's, and Christmas at my Dad's. My Dad's Christmas is happening tomorrow.

I also got:
Superman shirt, UT Smokey dog, TWO Julie CDs that I didn't have(I thought I owned them all), a kick ass picture of my chara from Jordan, a new DS game called Contact..I'll have to look at what else I have later. That's just off the top of my head.

Now that I've listed all the good stuff, be prepared. My next post shall be a very long, very thought out rant about why Christmas sucks. Tune in next week :p

Furry Essay Book Stuff

I'm not sure if anyone's watching my journal for this stuff, but I'll try to keep an update. Though excitement seems to have slightly died down, I WILL be ending the reviewer applications on January 15th. On the 16th I will make the final selections and hope we get a wide enough variety in people to give a varied point of view on the furry would.

So cross your fingers! Hopefully by February we'll start accepting essays!

I, like, using, commas.

Overly so, yes, but I like, them. Therefore, I will use them, whenever, I, god damn, please.

THER R PPL OUT THER TYPIN LIK TIS. SO I KIN USE ,S WHN I WNT. KPLSTHX.

Take it up the ass grammar whore.

Happy Yule. :3

Sidenote: I'm not really too terribly pissed and am a slight grammar whore myself actually. I just thought this was funny. And I needed to update with..something. And totally had nothing to talk about.

I don't want to dredge up any old wars in public viewable places and since the one thing I got to say on this big war got deleted(along with the entire post that was made about it) I'm gonna spew my shit here.

Headless or not? I'm sure those of us int he furry community that have been running circles around this topic are already rolling their eyes at this being brought up again. Which is fine. Please feel free to not read since you've probably heard these points before.

And for those of you out of the loop, here's the scoop(as far as I can tell): people went to MFF. Apparently lots of people this year were running about holding their heads in their hands and not wearing them with the rest of their suit.

But for the love of jesus this has brought up a shit ton of controversy. Indeed it was an unsaid rule to never take your head off. That's why we have the cooling off rooms. However, this is a changing time with different people and different ways. We all grow up differently with different values. And as the world continues to get older and us with it, things will ALWAYS change. Sometimes for the worst, sometimes not. Either way we need to just accept these changes and move on our merry way.

The Fursuit Database has now reported over 400 fursuits in its ranks. Think about that; 400! That's a lot of fursuits people and a lot of different personalities and ideas under each and every one.

Now I understand that there are people out there that don't want to ruin the magic by taking off their heads. I'll admit it looks a little weird to me to see someone running around in a fullsuit and not wearing their head, but we're also supposed to be one of the most tolerant and accepting sbucultures ever. So let's keep accepting, shall we?

Let bygones be bygones. Don't bash one or the other and don't segregate. The last thing we need right now is even more segregation. We already have the tendency to split ourselves by species and have a biased against primate furs(which is just really wrong by the way), so we need to set aside differences and just stop caring what the rest of us are doing.

My personal opinion on it? I don't know if I have one really. I don't know how I'm going to act in a fursuit really. I will not rip my head off in front of children just for fear of freaking them out, but I don't know about the rest. We'll see.

I'm constructing a book about furries!

Join us, won't you?

http://www.freewebs.com/furryessaybook/index.htm

Wahahah. I wish Golden Compass world really existed. Fuck the religious fanatics hating it. Man, they'll jump on anything these days won't they? "CELERY EVIL. DON'T FUCKING EAT IT. COMES FROM THE GROUND. DEVIL FOOD." I'm not going to comment on the actual movie; you guys decide for yourselves. I'm not willing to since I haven't read the book and therefore have no comparison.

Oh, but I do understand a bit of the religious worry since of something I heard about the third book. Not saying what it is, but if they make all three I can't wait to see how they handled it.


And yes, I'll go ahead and comment on this. I was planning on leaving it alone, but it's better if I clear it up a bit, especially after reading svashtar's post, whom I wish I could be more like.

I got in a fight with Bladespark. On understandable terms at first, but I took it too far and definitely insulted her much, much, muuuch more than I needed to. Hell, I shouldn't have insulted her at all, though I was a bit upset with how she responded to a certain post by my friend and I was handling the affair for her at the moment.

Still, there's no real good excuse for what I did. It was more an outlet for a bunch of shit. Keep trying to establish this 'be nice to everyone' attitude which makes all this anger at other people bundle up and suddenly burst out at wrong times. And I am definitely sorry for pretty much every single thing I said to her. I would apologize to her directly, but I'm afraid I've screwed things up too terribly to do so. I can only hope that after a bit of time passes I might be able to make things right. And hope that this doesn't effect my friend's purchase. AND hope that I am as sensible and level-headed as svashtar one day.

Hell, I don't even run a business. Who am to criticize?

Come. Come on a trip with me.

To where?

Where else but ROCKMOSIS

( ROCKMOSIS )

MOTHER OF CHRISTMAS LIFE IS NOT COOL SOMETIMES.

Okay, it's been a busy long time since I last posted, so let's try and sum things up easily in the order they transpired.

-Bad Thanksgiving. Tried to cook things I haven't cooked and sucked hard. We pretty much didn't have a dessert.
-My sister and brother got in a car wreck. Both are okay, but the car is so not. Totaled doesn't even begin to describe; it was a head on collision. Long story. The money we get probably won't cover another car. It's going to be very tight, very horrible couple of months.
-My mom took her tests to make Registered Respiratory Therapist, which means lotsa cash. Two tests, very hard, 400 bucks each attempt for both. She passed one on her second attempt, but still has to try again for the other test. Once again, money will be tight.
-My wallet hurts from its lack of fullness.
-I procrastinated like crazy or, rather, didn't pay attention to how many classes I had left in my film class. By the way, I'm flunking it. So now I have to watch three movies, one of which being The Sound of Music which I love but is VERY long and note taking will be..interesting. Then I have to write the papers all by 10:45AM Friday. Oh, those are for extra credit. So maybe I can pull my ass out of the fire.
-Three hour class. Lots of note taking. My wrist hates me. I am sooo having some tequila, like, NOW. And taking a really hot bath with scented melt your muscles shit.

Good news:

-Tom bought me a video card for not pestering him about some money he had borrowed from me! But I can't seem to get it to work properly. it's actually slowing down my games, which makes no sense.

Sorry again for not posting. it's going to be another few busy and evil days. I'll try to catch up on journals when I'm finished. And sorry for all the bad news with the flustered kind of tone and 'life is evil' shit. I just have no one to vent to, so this is place to do it. I still know things will turn out okay in the end.

Hope everything is going okay for you guys though! :3

I got up this morning, I was groggy, I went out to have a cigarette.

Without my pants. Because I'm smart like that.

At least it was in my backyard and I was wearing a lightly long shirt. I had sat down and lit the thing up before I noticed and by that time my next dog neighbor's dog was barking in their second story window. That window is like a fucking eye of God on my backyard so, sure enough, I was in the middle of running for the door when Marilyn pops up in the top window to see me, mid-stride and pantsless, trying to put out a cigarette and navigate the broken screen door in my backyard. She even waved.

So that was the event of events for today.

Oh, oh, did you hear?! Broadway's on strike! Can you believe it? I think I'm most surprised by Mamma Mia! being pulled into the fire. That show's been on Broadway since..well, since it ever came to be so far as I know. Wicked is fresh as well, so that was surprising too. But I guess popularity doesn't determine who keeps running, eh?

ART. MEME. ART MEME. I LIKA DA ART MEME.

( AAARRRTT MMMEEEMMMEEE )

Oh my GOD what an insano week this has been.

First of all, I went camping. We got a tent, but it turned out to be one that was from a long ass time ago and was a pup tent shoved in the bag for our huge tent. In other words, it was a really tiny ass tent. It was also really, really, rrreeeeaaaallllyyyy fucking cold. We had a starter log to get a fire started, but had no good wood to put on top of it after that. Therefore we had dinky fire and less warmth, which totally sucked. I felt like a fucking amateur even though I've been camping so very much in my life. At least I wasn't like Tom though, who laster commented to say "You guys should have put a heater in yoru tent!"

OMFG. NO. Aside from the flaming abyss that would happen when the thing fell over, we have never left anything plugged in when going to sleep at a campground. Dew=bad for cords (go figure).

We did have fun though. It was all like "OMG hangoutr time!" and being out in the wilderness is always exciting for me. I plan on going camping by myself someday so I can just gop and explore the woods like I used to when I was little. Maybe find a place to strengthen my bond with nature and do some magic.

So my sister got an extended visit this weekend too, which was really cool. i gave her her birthday present(new Metroid game). It kicks much ass, but now I am very broke. it was worth it though. I hope to do some Christmas shopping with the last of my paychecks and get college worked out financially.

Quit my job. I just wasn't making enough money with the cut hours and amount of days I was scheduled and they didn't listen to me about my schedule. I could only get out there with rides from Jordan, yet I was scheduled for days when she wasn't working frequently. So whatever, that's over and done with. I think it will be better for them really since it was such a pain to work my schedule out.

Uhh, I'm just really tired I guess. Looking forward to a night of alone time. So not in a sexual way. Just enjoying the fact that I get to be by myself for the first time in about a week.

*settles down to draw stuffs*

So I made a little audio post thing because I thought it would be fun. I have no idea how to upload it, so...You're going to have to download it if you want to hear it.

WARNING! I have to tendency to cuss. A lot. And I cuss more when I'm nervous, so I cussed quite a bit. If you don't want to hear it then please don't listen. Cool? Cool

http://www.badongo.com/file/5039605

If anybody knows a place to upload stuff to where people can just play it without having to download it, please do tell!

Also, I talked about Skype on here. My name is MianameMir if you feel like chatting.

Sidenote: Is it sad that 50% of my Other folder in my music is either Linkin Park or Disney tunes? o.o

It's so simple in my head. One little sentence:

I want to make video games.

And yet it seems so fucking impossible out here in the real world. Don't have the math skills for computer programming, can't find good, decent information on any other field dealing with making video games other than the constant advertisements that are thrown in your face saying "BE A GAME TESTER BE A GAME TESTER (pay us 50 dollars) BE A GAME TESTERRRR!!!"

So fuck school. I'm going to pick some insanely easy degree, shove my way through school, then go one to do what I really want to fucking do. Probably take something like Computer (insert bullshit here) degree and call it quits.

Besides, that will please my mom. Then I can go on to make video games while working at Disney World to make ends meat. Sounds like a plan to me.

So I've been thinking, like, a lot about my character. A whoooole lot. And even though I just posted on Furtopia saying I was a ribbon seal, I now say fuck it.

I'm a serval. I love how they look, they're small heads and large ears, their long bodies and elongated legs. Oddly shaped, yes, but beautiful. No many animals in the world move me like servals do, so that's that. I'm a serval and my 'OMG I HAVE TO BE AS ORIGINAL AS POSSIBLE!!" side will just have to fucking live with it.

I think I will change my colors though. Maybe a nice black and orange combo, but that might look a bit to tigerish. I mean, I just don't want people thinking I'm a tiger, you know? We shall see. I'll come up with something.

How is this even conceivably possible?

I took the SAT straight out of college(or what I finished of it) and made 370 on the math. Now I took the math section again and just made 440. Which is just the number I need to make it into UWF.

I'm just..stunned. I've got to call UWF to make sure they'll accept it and it will work, but who knows? Maybe I will finally get to go to that freaking school.

Along with that, tonight I made paws using some gloves and a tail for my suit, which came out looking great actually. I'll post pictures when I get some working AA batteries.

I also got my job back at Walgreens and I'm having my first day on Sunday.

And yet still, I feel so bad. I mean, all of these things are going great, but they certainly aren't great for my cousin.

Yeah, don't think I posted about that here yet. My cousin Chris has done a whole lot of drugs and now, at the age of fucking 29, his liver's shutting down. I just can't fathom him being gone really..

Ever seen that movie Sicko? It's happening to him now. He went to the free clinic, but had no insurance, so they pretty much sent him home to die. I really hate to sound so pessimistic, but if you knew the gruesome details I do, you would know it's true. It's only a matter of time really. If he could get a transplat he would have a chance, but that's just not going to happen. They don't do that for people who have done drugs.

...Well, I'll just try to keep my mind off of it really. The best thing I can do at the moment.

I should be...

-Cleaning the kitchen that I've made into a disaster area. Let's just say ravioli and begging animals under foot=BAD.
-Fixing my LJ layout because it's fucking plain.
-Actually learning to work Facebook. The damned thing. Can't figure out how to add friends.
-Starting my self-made C++ courses.
-Finishing my webpage.

I will be...

-Playing Voyage Century Online. By far the most promising MMO I've seen in years, but I've gotten my hopes up before. We shall see.
-Going to the Mullet Festival this Sunday. Yes, there's a festival in my town. We like mullet and eat it. With beer no less. Yay for events that allow public intoxication!
-Getting my job back t Walgreens. If I can ever get a hold of Mrs. T..

Thanks for the gift on Facebook tieran :3 It was wonderful! Good cheerer upper after I found out I flunked my test ;.;

Got it from here:
http://www.greatestjournal.com/userinfo.bml?user=whitewhisper

The guy lists credits and such.

*FALLS OUT OF FUCKING CHAIR AND DIES FROM LACK OF AIR* Too...much..laughing..

*points to icon* See that? That was one of the first icons I ever made. And I still love it to pieces <3 Because it simply is Julie. She dazzles you with everything.

Did you know Julie's birthday is one day after my own? I turned 20 on Sept. 30th this year, she turned 72 on October 1st. It makes for happy.